Everyone is afraid of something. Whether they’d like to openly admit it or not.
My phobia happens to be Lepidopterophobia.
Big word huh? Sometimes I feel like my phobia name is actually mocking me.. but that’s ok. I suppose it is a rather silly phobia at first impression, but when you really look and think about it properly, maybe I won’t seem so crazy after all.
According to this source,
“Community for people that fear butterflies and moths is known as Lepidopterophobia. The after affect of this is anxiety which is termed as Anxiety Lepidopterophobia.
The word Lepidopterophobia dereives from the word Lepidopterans which is any of the large order (Lepidoptera) of insects comprising the butterflies, moths, and skippers that as adults have four broad or lanceolate wings usually covered with minute overlapping and often brightly colored scales and that as larvae are caterpillars.”
I got this from a website about depression -_-
I don’t think I’m depressed, but I definitely feel anxious about Lepidopterophobia!
Yes, I am afraid of Butterflies and Moths.
..Wait, don’t laugh just yet!!!!! They are more scary and harmful than they seem!
Now you’re probably wondering why I would be scared of supposedly “harmless, beautiful creatures”? May I correct this warped bullshit by just reminding you that they are NOT pretty!!! (and certainly not harmless)
How the fuck are butterflies “beautiful”?! Insects, in any form, are DISGUSTING.
I hate every insect, but with moths and butterflies… It’s a different kind of war man.
Take a look at them CLOSE-UP, and judge for yourself!!!
WARNING: Squeamish people who hate insects with a passion, especially moths and butterflies should be mentally prepared to look at a terrorizing image.
OHHHHHHHMYYYYYYYGOOOOOOOODDDDDDDDD. *finds it hard to breathe*
I can’t believe I posted a picture of a fucking ugly butterfly on my blog!!!!!! My blog is polluted now. Wait, scratch that, there is no such thing as an ugly butterfly. They are ALL ugly.
I mean, will you please look at that thing!!!! It is not pretty at ALL, WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU! You know what’s really pretty? Me. Haha.
Ok sorry I just had to put that bit in.
BUT SERIOUSLY IS THAT FUCKING DISGUSTING OR WHAT OMFG HYPERVENTILATING NOW.
It’s fucking hairy, it looks damn evil with those beady eyes, it has freakishly long and thin antennas and it has so many legs and the fattest abdomen ever!!!
I feel myself die a little inside every time I look at that image.
I know people find the “wings” the pretty part, but will you just look past the supposedly “pretty” wings *barfs* and actually take a look at WHAT’S UNDERNEATH?
Haven’t we always said that “it’s what’s beneath the surface and what lies on the inside that counts”?
Well guess what!!!!
What lies beneath the surface of this supposed “pretty thing”…
All butterfly / moth bodies look very similar so there!!! They are all hideous.
Many people say their wings come in pretty shapes and designs, but personally I think they look damn freaky and dangerous. Kind of reminds me of ugly freakish bright patterns that natives draw on their faces and masks when they go to war.
That’s what nature teaches you - unnecessarily brightly colored designs?
“Butterflies will not harm me, but they will make me harm myself.”
I know moths are less brightly colored…
But don’t even get me started on them.
WTF IS THIS?!????? Possibly even uglier then butterflies! *shudders*
You know what’s the worst part?
There are heaps of ugly creatures created by mother nature, but I don’t go out of my way to hate them just because they are ugly. What I truly, fucking hate about butterflies and moths is how supposedly “beautiful” and “harmless” they pretend to be, when in fact they are evil little blood suckers.
Kind of like the dirty cheap slut who won’t stop flirting with your boyfriend in a “friendly manner”!
Very few know of their true form, and those who do hate them with a vengeance just like I do!
I hate how butterflies and moths have NO sense of direction,
and they send themselves FLYING INTO YOUR FUCKING FACE.
First of all, they sneak in to your house through a tiny opening by the window when you’re not looking like a ninja then they find themselves a cozy spot on your wall.
Then they wait.
They wait for hours, days, just for you to come home….
Never once, do they leave their spot. They lie in the darkness, preferably in the toilet so when poor innocent Jessica switches on the bathroom light at 3am to pee, what does she see?
A FUCKING BIG, BLACK MOTH FLUTTERING AROUND MADLY IN HER FACE.
“Omfg it’s attacking me!!! It wants to eat me!!”
With every other animal / insect in this world, when they sense danger, they will run away. But no. Cb butterflies and moths will just flutter around like crazy with disgustingly powdery furry wings and terrorize you even further.
And call me crazy, but I believe that moths / butterflies can sense fear.
They ALWAYS fly towards the one who is scared of them.
I’ve tried so many ways to avoid them but somehow they always find their way towards me. I am not crazy, I wish somebody would believe me!!!
Scenario 1 -
I come home late at night. Very aware that moths are the most active this late, I am paranoid and check every corner of my corridor to make sure there’s no cb moth lying in wait to attack me.
The coast is clear. I let out a sigh of relief.
I let my guard down, and ring the doorbell. Just to be be completely sure and make myself feel better, I do one last spot check while my maid comes to get the door.
….OMG WTF IS THAT?! Tell me that’s not a fucking big, black moth that I missed out in the corner!!!
“Omg plz don’t notice me plz don’t attack me I’m just going to go inside my house and leave you alone you can attack my brother who thinks you are harmless…”
Moth immediately reads my mind and feeds off my fear.
One second it was completely still, almost looked asleep but the very next thing I know it comes FLYING TOWARDS ME AT 100KPH and flutters around my face.
Why do they ALWAYS go for my face?!? The powdery substance on their body can blind our eyes! Not permanently, but still.
When whining to Sam one night, he in all seriousness said, “perhaps they want to feed off the proteins in your eyeball.”
The list of reasons why they are creepy goes on and on.
I find it freaky how they keep ramming their heads into light bulbs over and over again!!
I find it freaky how they were LARVAE at first, before becoming winged creatures of doom. OH MY GOD.
Flying larvae!! How is that not scary.
I get so freaked out when I see moths and butterflies, I will run away faster than you can ask where I’m going. I will scream and cry if one gets too near. And I will punch anybody who gets in my way of escaping.
I think one of the scariest experiences in my life is when I was showering late at night, happily splashing myself with cold water.
I already checked my bathroom beforehand to make sure it was moth free.
And out of NOWHERE, this fucking big black moth appeared (yes, my house area is full of this species) and started fluttering around crazily!!!
I couldn’t do anything because I was completely naked and wet, and the moth was fluttering in FRONT of the door, therefore I couldn’t escape!
I was so terrified because it was coming dangerously near me, all I did was sit down in a corner and cry, at the same time holding up the shower head in front of me to spray water so it wouldn’t come any nearer. In the end I had to call for my maid to get it out for me. All of this while still naked and crying LOL.
I don’t really know where I got this phobia from, ever since I could remember I’ve been having nightmares about them and frankly speaking it would be a lot more convenient if I was the kind of girl who could just be brave and swat the insect away!
It also doesn’t help that my numerous traumatizing encounters with these creatures also elevated my fear. I reckon people who don’t hate insects are the people who are fortunate enough to not get caught in fucked up situations where they’re all over your face, on your bed, or just making your life a little more miserable for that 1 minute.
I was reading www.ihatebutterflies.com (GREAT WEBSITE!!!) and came across this really interesting theory:
“I saw this programme once about phobias. They were mainly focused on arachnophobia (which I note several of us here don’t have), but they also interviewed a woman who was terrified of cats. The experts analysis of her fear was that it was something about the nature of cats which she found disgusting (this was a big breakthrough, incidentally, that the roots of the ‘fear’ actually appeared to lie in disgust).
Her personal shrink reckoned that, since she was rather a prudish individual – for want of a more neutral term – she found cats’ free-roaming, unshackled existence to be abhorrent.
I’m a person who likes to know where I have things, and know where I stand. It wouldn’t surprise me to learn that the flittery, panicked, chaotic and random movement of moths and butterflies is what really puts me off the little fuckers in the first place.”
And that’s totally true!
I know that moths will not eat me alive, but I hate the fact that I CANNOT stop them from coming near me. Personal space man!!!
I hate their super fast, super unpredictable movements because I cannot defend myself.. and I’m a very defensive and jumpy person by nature.
I also hate the fact that they seem to make no effort in avoiding humans. They just smack into your face all the time.
I also hate the fact that people think they are so cute / harmless / whatever, fuck you if you are one of those people!!!!
Lastly, I also hate the fact that some people make fun of me because of my phobia. Yes, I know it is irrational but I don’t laugh at other peoples phobias!
I’m not scared of heights, small spaces, roller coasters, spiders, snakes, rats, or any other common phobias. I just really hate insects, moths / butterflies in particular.
…….So that’s my story about Lepidopterophobia.
I feel so much better after typing all of this out because it’s something that has been bothering me deeply for the longest time!
The first step to overcoming your fear is acknowledging it.
I suppose I’ve taken a step forward. I never used to talk much about it and I couldn’t even bring myself to look at pictures. Now the pictures are on my blog!!!!
How about you guys? What are YOU really afraid of?
Come and share with me, no matter how irrational or silly it seems! Nothing I would laugh at. I’m afraid of butterflies and moths.
Leave a comment, I’d love to know!
Makes me feel less alone when people share their common fears.
P.S – Does anyone have the code to include the date at the top of your post? I can’t seem to extract it out of a normal blog skin! Do share!! ^.^