Gardens By The Bay

So I’m still nursing the open wound I acquired last week.

Much of my free time has been spent with the sheets draped over my head, deep in pessimistic thoughts. I really didn’t think the cut would be this deep…. I guess the blade was sharper than it seemed. Let’s just say I don’t deal with rejection very well. And lately, my self-confidence has been plummeted so far down I don’t know if I have any left. I pretend I’m dealing with it fine but really I’m confused and hurt as fuck inside. I completely screwed up my own chances so I’m finding it impossible to forgive myself. After the competition was over, it left me in a lot of self doubt. What the hell am I doing with my life? How did I let such a good opportunity slip? What is wrong with me? What is my calling in life? (*rolls eyes at this*) Am I lazy, undeserving or just untalented? 

I used to think that only bored-out-of-their-brains, directionless people had those of thoughts of uselessness. People who sit on their bums and never do anything with their lives. I never imagined that even with goals and hard work and sweat and tears, I could still fall short of my own expectations, and feel worthless of my own dreams.

Like I don’t deserve to be somebody, or anybody. I try to be realistic when it comes to ambition, but then again… ambitions aren’t supposed to be realistic, are they? They were created to challenge yourself, to prove the impossible to be do-able if only you have just the right amount and mix of talent, luck and determination. I feel stuck in the middle, torn apart by two different personalities inside of me. One’s telling me to dream big, and never lose sight of my passions and to work even harder to do what I’ve always wanted to do. Another is telling me, forget it… Just focus on cake making and making money, what else time do you have left to pursue other interests? You’re not that great, anyway. Who would watch you, follow your journey and wish for your success? Get over yourself. Get real. You’re not that special at the end of the day. You know how many other people out there who are better than you, and want it more than you do?

So those are just some of the thoughts going on in my brain that have resulted in a very heavy and imploding heart in my chest recently. I wish I could be contented with a simple life, doing simple things, being an absolutely normal but contented person. I have met people like that and they seem happy going about their daily routines with a happy family and loving partners. Make the money, save some of it, spend the rest of it. Plenty of people work in jobs that they don’t particularly enjoy but it makes them the money to pay off the bills and that’s good enough. Why do I have to SO STUBBORN and insist that my job has to be something I love doing at the same time? Can I just snap out of this idealistic daydream and find a normal job already? Stupid person who said, “If you have a job you love doing, you’ll never have to work a day in your life again.” lied to me. Often, the stress that comes together with turning your interest into business completely ruins the meaning of why you enjoyed your passion in the first place. It rips away the pure, true untainted interest that stemmed it all from the beginning, and in its place is hideous greed and a insatiable hunger for more benefits. Sometimes I hate myself for doing this to me, for commercializing everything I ever loved, to the point where I feel like I can no longer indulge in my favorite activities without stopping to think about the possibility of even more commercial gains. Shame on me.

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That aside, enough whiny relentless ranting…. here’s a complete change of mood – a happy picture log from when I visited Gardens By The Bay with the fam.  Even when I’m having the shittiest time in the whole wide world, nothing quite cheers me up like spending quality time with the people who matter the most.

I would love to continue wallowing in self-pity forever, but life still goes on!!!

…Right?

Right.

I don’t know why it took me so long to finally visit Gardens By The Bay even though I’ve stayed at Marina Bay Sands a lot of times since its opening… but I did finally pay it a visit and it was a very enjoyable two hours!

Ho hum. I’m just waiting for my rainbow after the storm to appear in my life. Damn you overused cliche internet quotes, you’d better not cheat my naive feelings a second time.

 

I will always be a mummy’s girl. But I’m sorry mum if I’ve disappointed you recently when I didn’t make it through. :( I know you wanted it for me as much as I did for myself.

That’s the last of my emo nonsense. On to the other topic of the day – Gardens By The Bay was actually very pleasant to visit, because both garden domes are air-conditioned!!!! It was like this massive cold temperature glass house garden in the middle of my scorching but beautiful city, crammed with as many random plants as you could fit in a dome and I’m afraid my pictures don’t do it sufficient justice. You have to see it in person to know what the fuss is about! I have had two Australian couple friends visit Singapore recently and this was very high on my recommended list of things to do, they absolutely loved the experience!

I would’ve liked taking my time to snap nicer photos but my parents can’t be bothered to wait around, so all of these were snap-and-go in order to keep up with their pace. Jesus those old people sure do walk fast!

I like how I could see the city skyline from inside the gardens, it was the perfect combination of nature and urban civilization! It reminded me of how I felt standing in the gorgeous King’s Park in Western Australia, overlooking Perth’s water and city buildings.

I loveeee being surrounded by greenery, flowers, plants and trees but I absolutely HATE insects. Normally they come hand in hand together but at Gardens By The Bay, I didn’t come across any mozzies or insects that bothered me… best of all, NO BUTTERFLIES!!!! YES!!!!! 
It was like a dream come true for me!
There are two domes at Gardens By The Bay, the first being Cloud Forest and the second is Flower Dome. Cloud Forest is rainforest themed with some futuristic elements, but I preferred the Flower Dome more for colorful frivolous reasons glaringly obvious in the following photos!
I admit, I’m an Instagram whore. I never stop taking pictures with my phone. 
On a side note, can I just comment on how much I love my jade bangle that was only $2 from Bali? Best buy ever! I’ve been wearing it a whole lot. I’ve been on a hunt for jade-lookalike accessories but it sure as hell isn’t easy to find. Other precious stones / crystals such as rose quartz have been catching on with the trends, but not so much for my good friend Jade.  My nearing-80-years-old grandmother even commented it was nice because well, grannies wear a lot of jade stuff hahaha. Clearly it’s not real jade but I have no problems with costume jewelry. They’re fun. I’m not that keen on buying real jade because they look a little too traditional… any girls know where to buy jade costume jewelry?! Let me know please! 
The perfect backdrop for photos :)
They’re so cute together. Any elderly couple that still hold hands when they walk together are cool shit in my books. 
Gardens By The Bay is the perfect place for a first date, I reckon! Imagine exchanging cute flirting back and forth while walking through these lush flowering gardens and sitting in these little pavilions basking in each others company… Ahh, young love. Or, old love works as well – even better!!!
Loved the short but sweet time I spent at Gardens By The Bay, it’s like escaping from the hustle and bustle of the city while being in the heart of the city itself… Singapore, how do you manage to outdo yourself with every new attraction? I’m so lucky to be living in this wonderful country and even though I still have this longing of wanting to live somewhere else in the world in the future, I’m glad I didn’t leave so soon for my university studies last year because there would’ve been so much that I’d missed here. 
The rest of the world can wait, for now. Singapore has my heart at the moment.
xoxo,
Jess
xoxo,
Jess

The Singapore Zoo

We made a trip to the zoo the other weekend out of spontaneity! Now that I stay in Yishun, it’s actually only like 15 minutes away from my place…. proof that I do live in the middle of nowhere. T__T

I remember the last time I went to the zoo, it was with a bunch of friends from high school that I don’t even talk to now anymore. Time just went by like that.
As it turns out, I still enjoy looking at and learning about animals. I’m 21 this year but I still feel like a kid inside, sometimes. A kid who has a lot of responsibilities. Lol. I hope I never lose this child-like fascination with the world, though. I think it’s an underrated blessing how I’m relatively easily contented, and have the ability to stay positive or happy despite facing trying problems of my own in life. 
I went to the zoo with a 27 year old and an almost 30 year old. And they were both much more excited and amused than I was. 
Monkeys were rocking the ombre style way before us!
I have this thing for touristy stuff. I’m way too happy to give my money away when it comes to doing all the touristy attractions in any place I visit, even the country I live in. I did the flying fox in Sentosa, I’ve been on the Singapore Flyer, I went to the S.E.A marine life park on the very first day it opened…. I don’t think there is one popular local attraction I haven’t checked out yet! Aside from the bungee ride thing at Clarke Quay.
They’ve brought in quite a few different animals since the last time I was here!!!

This is going to be a picture log of random critters more than anything else since our whole day was basically spent gawking at funny looking animals, making rude comments and perspiring in the heat. 

Otters are soooo cute!!!! They’re like these playful little mini sea lions who hold hands and chase after each other and swim in pairs!
Weee, backflip!!!
Hi little red panda! This was in a separate exhibit you had to pay $3/$5 (can’t remember how much exactly) to see, which also contained the giant pandas…
HELLO.
It was so freaking big and scary!!!!! I have never seen a panda IRL before so I thought it’d be all cute and cuddly like people make them out to be but holy shit if I were anywhere near that thing I’d be shitting my pants so bad they would smell it from a mile away. I don’t see how these things are ANY less intimidating than grizzly bears… bears just scare me so much. 
I know people find their black eye rings adorable but I think it makes them appear extra sinister. 
Ok fine… SOMETIMES they’re cute with their retardedly funny expressions. Lol. This is a classic “O RLY?” face.

 And if you haven’t seen the hilarious sneezing panda video from years ago, you have to!!!

We couldn’t figure out what those gun-shot-like wounds on the rhino are! They’re oozing stuff… :3 Were they formed because insects hatched inside their hide and then burrowed out? Does anybody know? And lolol at the bird on the rhino’s forehead. It doesn’t give a damn.
Byrne paid money to feed the giraffe. Money well spent I guess because how often can you say you got to feed this gentle giant?! Their tongues are longgg and sticky and black though…. so I opted out.
Sam’s very pleased about the lion humping another.
This leopard swims like me….. with her head out of the water! “Oh shit, my hair’s gonna get wet!! Gotta keep above the surface!”
So cute! Yet, so deadly.
I don’t even know what this is called but it’s like a mini leopard / jaguar / cat creature….. I WANTS ONE!!!!!! I read in the USA some people kept these exotic felines as pets, they cost like 20k USD but they can be quite dangerous, especially when they grow bigger! You can see me in the picture snapping a shot of it with my iPhone. 
These giant tortoises were so big I was extremely tempted to ride them… I was wondering if I DID jump over the fence and sit on their big shells, what will they do? They won’t bite…. coz tortoises aren’t aggressive…. or are they? I imagine them just shrugging and going, “meh”, then resuming their business of doing absolutely nothing. Just being old.
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I know I’ve been pretty absent online recently. Sowie.

What on earth have I been doing besides spending an abnormal amount of time with my bunny Mochi? Well, besides cleaning the house and doing housework because I don’t have a maid anymore and I’m renting a condo, I’ve been madly busy with certain ambitious things I can’t tell you guys about YETTTTT because I’m contract-bound and sworn to secrecy upon my life and I don’t know if I’m one of the finalists or not (something like that), but it’s very exciting news if it does materialize because I’m pursuing another passion of mine which I’ve left neglected for awhile *crosses fingers*, other than that I want to announce that I HAVE RESUMED BAKING BUSINESS with Shiberty’s Sweets!!!!

So that means you can send in your orders and queries for awesome yummeh cakes startin’ NOW. If you’re looking for a nice unique cake for a special occasion coming up, check us out at http://shibertys.blogspot.sg. Where diet goes to die, because sweet dreams are made of these!!! ♥ ♥ ♥
xoxo,
Jess
xoxo,
Jess

Mini Golfing at LilliPutt

What do 4 bored people get up to over the weekend, when they don’t want to do the usual activities such as watching a movie or shopping?

..Give mini golfing a swing, that’s what!

I’d first tried mini golfing in Australia more than a year ago, and have been itching to do it again ever since. I know the activity is rather juvenile, more suited for those under 15 to play… but what can I say?? I relish being childish and young at heart. I mean, I publicly broadcast my relationship with my soft toy penguins, for goodness’ sake.

So off we drove, all the way to East Coast Park for some mini golfing fun at LilliPutt.

I don’t actually have any interest in real golfing (well I’ve never tried it) but mini golfing is so funny and brainless, everyone should give it a shot if you’ve never had a go at it – a fantastic couple, family or friends activity!!! Unless you’re actually good at real golfing…. then which, I suppose, you’d find this ultra lame. :P

The rest of you non-elitist people, mini golfing is the next best thing! You just pick up your putter, give it a swing, and wait for the hilarious laughs that will follow.

Lilli Putt has 18 different holes themed according to Singapore’s attractions and landmarks. They were so creative and it was fun exploring the different holes!!! (That’s what he said. Wait, ew no… not really) This one’s something to do with the SAF obviously. And check out how the track goes into a 360 degree turn!

If you’re a local, you’re gonna find these set ups pretty cute and familiar. And if you’re not a Singaporean, here’s a little insight and peek into what goes on in the little red dot called Singapore!

Changi Airport! I miss living less than 10 minutes away from the airport, at Simei. East side is so tranquil and nice compared to the North T_T

What to do when your friend is beating your score

Sam and I get amazingly competitive when we play games with each other. I HAVE to beat him.... I just have to, every single time!!! Be it board games, arguments and mind games (lol). But I ended up losing the round of mini golfing to him by 1 point. Le sigh. S’ok, I got the mind games part nailed. :’D

If at first you don’t succeed…. put the damn ball into the hole with your hand.

The esplanade! Looking, um, disturbingly browned and rusty. When you hit the ball into the passages, the durians light up.

Diana, wrong hole lah!!!!! LOL.

I was impressed by their innovative thinking – this one featured the MRT train system, and you had to wait for the traveling train to stop at its station before putting it into the carriage… and then it would be carried away and deposited into a different section! How fun. *am easily amused*

Me and my crayner Diana. We’re the Jedi Masters. I’m glad a blogging work trip could bring about a valuable friend in my life. ♥

Suntec City.. Going up the escalator!

Diana and Byrne giving us a pose. Spot the famous fountain of wealth at the bottom right of the picture… and the hole for the ball to sink into! Wasn’t an easy feat getting it in there, especially not with ONE shot, but I did it!!!! Woop woop!

At the Jurong Bird Park!

No prizes for guessing that this is at Harbourfront.

When I first saw this exhibit I was like… whatttt?! Since when did Singapore have skiing and slopes like that? Then I realized it was supposed to be the man made Snow City. A bit (or a lot) exaggerated, but…. #okaycan.jpg?

What is your favorite hawker centre food?

Mine is chwee kueh, prawn mee (soupy type), ba chor mee. satay and roti prata!

Haw Par Villa used to freak me out when I visited many years ago. Walking through the different levels of hell and looking at “people being punished for their sins”……. If you’ve never been, imagine this: If you told lies, your tongue will be ripped out from your throat. And there would imagery for all of this. I’m surprised a place as censored as Singapore would allow kids to run about those premises with such gruesome looking statues.

“Jess, why do you always make me do degrading shit for your blog…?”

How the different courses look like when placed side by side

After finishing all 18 holes, we shifted our attention to the arcade machines outside…. and dumped in more dollars than we would’ve liked to get these four toys. LOL.

We didn’t even want the toys, but the cheap thrills from claw machines are just too ridiculously addictive to pass up.

The pink one’s supposed to be me, and other, Sam. Everyone altogether now….. Awwwwwwwww.

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So, if you’re looking for a relaxing and good natured fun weekend activity that everyone in your family and group of differing ages and interests can do together, why not check out LilliPutt’s mini golfing at East Coast? Visit their website for more information, such as opening hours, admission rates and CNY opening days. PS – Bring socks!!!

LilliPutt Mini Golf
902 East Coast Parkway
Block B #03-05
Big Splash
Singapore 449874
Tel: 6348 9606 Fax: 6348 7637
Email: info@lilliputt.com

xoxo,
Jess

xoxo,
Jess
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