Valentine’s Day 2012

This Valentine’s Day, Sam and I decided to keep it relatively simple.

Not because we think splurging on V’day is a waste of money, but because we’re going overseas soon and I tend to spend a lot more than I can afford on my travel adventures so yeah, V’day can take second place this time!

Last year we had a spa session, stayed at an idyllic hotel and had a nice dinner by the sea side.. This year we did almost all of that again except the spa part, which I think I would’ve appreciated the most. ;_; *aching muscles*


Nevertheless, we managed to spend quality
time with each other, and at the end of the day, that’s what matters!

Long before Valentine’s Day actually happened, Sam decorated my room with a bunch of roses and twinkly lights. :’) It is incredibly prettyful and romantic at night!!!!!!! I don’t think I’ll ever find another guy in this world to do this for me. He knows just the right ways to sweep me off my feet. It’s so simple but it lights up my world every night. Literally.

Here’s sort of how it looks like, without any editing done to the colors / lighting:

Except that this was taken with my iPhone (as with many other pictures in this post) so the quality isn’t the greatest, it is in fact a lot less harsh looking and more dreamy in real life! :)

Set me in mood for lovin’ wayyy before the 14th of February. ♥

My V’day activities officially started on the 13th of February.

I woke up in the morning, and baked about 100 cupcakes! But I’ll tell you more about that later.

Sam, seeing me hard at work, decided to cook an amazing Pre-V’day lunch all for meeee!

♥ ♥ ♥ It was delizziioouuss.


1st dish:
Golden mushrooms soaked in sukiyaki sauce, wrapped with bacon, on a bed of buttered baby asparagus.

2nd dish:
Honey glazed marinated pork belly pieces, with super caramelized onions and accompanied by flame grilled portobello mushrooms

3rd dish:
Baked red skinned potatoes with heavy dollops of sour cream, cheese, bacon pieces & spring onions!!!

SUPER DUPER YUMMY. I was like this :’DDDDD FER ME?!

10/10 points for the sweet gesture, effort and taste!! The way to a man’s heart, they say, is through his stomach. I reckon it goes the same way for women. Or any living creature for that matter.


…Back to the cupcakes!

They were butterscotch cupcakes with luscious chocolate buttercream, topped off with gold sprinkles and red hearts then packed them into boxes of 12. Here they are, obscenely squashed in between my thunder thighs for maximum support, hastily squeezed into Nich’s car. LOL.

His car is the tiniest 2 seater convertible ever and it’s quite a miracle that we could squeeze 100 cupcakes into the passenger seat WITH ME in it and that none of the cuppycakes got squashed during transport.

Thanks to Nich who agreed to help me deliver to their far away, obscure locations! You’re a champ!!!

These cupcakes were on their way to Childrens’ Homes. I watched the movie “Patch Adams” recently, and was inspired by how the main character in the movie helped needy children feel better. Something then popped into my head, telling me it’d be a good idea to deliver cupcakes to children’s homes for Valentine’s Day, just to spread some love… and hopefully put a grin on a few kid’s faces. Well 90+ kids in fact.

I only wish I could’ve been there in person to see their expressions when their whole face gets covered with chocolate buttercream!!! Unfortunately I had to rush off to meet Sam for our own plans.

Everyone deserves to be loved.

V’day doesn’t have to be all about romance. It can be going shopping with your girlfriends, spending time with your parents / grandparents or even doing charity and making a stranger’s day. Everyone has a different way of expressing their love. For me, charity was a piece of cake.

I think people should take a chill pill, and stop saying things like “I hate Valentine’s Day!!!” or “FUCK LOVEY DOVEY COUPLES AND THEIR MUSHY BULLSHIT.” It’s not very pleasant.

Sure, it’s commercialized, but so is every other holiday in the calender. Commercialism isn’t always a bad thing. People are happy, and business booms. What is there to complain about? Just because people celebrate Christmas once a year and make a big hooha out of it during that period, doesn’t mean they only love Jesus / God one day out of that whole year. They love God every single day, they just make their worship and affection extra obvious on that one special day.

So it’s not fair at all to say that couples who indulge in Valentine’s Day activities are superficial and hypocritical. Single people who whine and bitch about V’day are no different from the scrooges and grouches that put down X’mas because they are too bitter to be happy for other people.

Just because your friends give you presents and throw a part for you on one specific date annually (your birthday) to celebrate your existence, would that mean they don’t actually care enough about you every other day of the year? No, it just means that people are imperfect, and sometimes we’re too caught up with our own thoughts and doings that we forget to take time to smell the roses. Or to give your special girl roses. Valentine’s Day lets couples all over the world do that.

So dear single, angry people..

If you don’t stop sulking, you might miss the chance for somebody special to fall in love with your smile.

After delivering the cupcakes to their respective locations, Nich dropped me off at Marina Bay Sands where I met up with the boyfie, and….

He surprised me with flowers!!!!

He had the cheekiest smile on his face when he showed up and walked through the door with a big bouquet of roses. Ok not as big as the 100+ roses one he got me last time but still big enough considering I was actually expecting zero!

I was genuinely surprised to receive a bouquet, because I was with him 24/7 and I don’t see how he had the time to buy flowers without me knowing.. after all, we live in the same room. I think he ran out of the house when I went to deliver the cupcakes and hastily bought the bouquet then. I told him not to buy flowers, because they’re so overpriced on V’day… but he did anyway.

I’m not complaining!!! ♥ Thank you for the gorgeous flowers!

Frolicked around in the room for a bit before heading downstairs for the buffet dinner, where we stuffed our faces till we could eat and move no more.. and then we chatted the night away.

I love it when we have the time to have slow dinners, just talking about everything and nothing. A constant flow of meaningful conversation is essential to a healthy relationship! My favorite thing to do with Sam is 1) cuddling and 2) talking about life

I first fell in love with him 3 years ago just listening to his voice online. It wouldn’t be the same if he didn’t have the same deep, hunky voice he does. :P

Cheers to everything we’ve shared, and everything else that is to come.

The rest of the day… was just glorious lazying around. My favorite kind of activity. Falling in and out of naps, watching TV, soaking in bubble baths and watching candlelight flicker. Losing track of time.

I always come to MBS for every special occasion (X’mas, birthdays, anniversaries, just for fun, whenever) it is like a true sanctuary to me. I feel like it’s the only place in Singapore I can TRULY leave Singapore while being right in the middle of it. When I’m here, I either switch off my phone or turn it on silent mode, and forget the world.

No cupcakes to frost, no 2 tiered cake to decorate, no blog hater to leave a rude comment, no twitter drama to follow, no emails to reply, no whatsapp buzzing my phone every few minutes, to cake customers to hound me relentlessly, no errands to run, no maid to come into my room and annoy me….

Absolutely NOTHING to do, except anything that I WANT to do.

That’s what I call a good day. And I will never ever ever get sick of MBS. Lol. Never. I see myself coming back here 30 more times. :)

Phillip enjoying the view!!! I squealed in delight when I found out that Sam had actually packed Phillip into the suitcase. He is the cuddliest thing to ever exist. Usually when I forget to bring him I get bummed out. I love Phillip. I tell him all my problems and he talks back. Don’t ask how, but he really does, lol.

Let me give you an idea. Sam hides behind the penguin and puts on the funniest high pitched voice and thus Phillip the real penguin is born. :3

It’s the CUTEST thing ever coz Sam makes Phillip look like he is moving on his own and makes him flap his arms up and down and bounce hyperactively hahaha I have trouble believing Phillip isn’t actually alive. To me he is. I LOVE LOVE LOVE PHILLIP.

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The next morning, on Valentine’s Day itself -

It was the most difficult thing getting out of bed, despite having a late check out at 1pm. MBS has the softest sheets I’ve slept on.

Thankfully we had food to seduce us out of bed. Or we might have just stayed in there forever!


My V’day dress!!! ^.^

Sam likes me in white. So I’m going to hunt more white dresses for my birthday, his birthday, etc. White’s a tricky color… If you pick the wrong dress you’ll look extra wide for nothing. Hopefully this turned out to be a good choice!



My roses!!! ♥ ♥ ♥

If you don’t normally wear red lipstick, V’day is the only day you can, without anyone asking why.



Double the trouble!

Paired my new royal blue knitted cardigan with my embroidered white dress!

After bumming around some more and watching Discovery Channel (our main source of entertainment at MBS), we checked out, I did some shopping at La Senza and we went home!!!

Oh oh – what we got each other for Valentine’s Day!

I was happily napping back in my own bed at home, when I was awoken by Phillip being bounced up and down on my tummy.

And then I saw the card.

And I was like… AWWWWW.

Then he probed me to open the card and to read the inside,…


AND THEN I WAS ALL LIKE

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SERIOUSLY THE C U T E S T THING I HAVE EVER BEEN PRESENTED WITH.

It made me sosososososo happy!!! I was like, “Phillip drew this?! Oh Phillip you sweet, sweet thing!” And Sam just stands there wishing he had written “From Phillip & Sam” coz I was showering the penguin with kisses. LOL.

Since we agreed on no expensive presents this year, I also gave him a hand drawn card in return.

Most of you probably won’t know what the image above signifies.

But big ♥ to you if you get it!!! You’ve been a dedicated reader and I love you for it!!!!

The rest of the day was quiet, the way we wanted it.

He whipped up some heart shaped mushroom bites (it tastes likes the one you get at TCC but better!!!) and a beef dish for dinner. Oh and he also made dessert that was heart shaped pavlova which I forgot to take a picture of. Lovely, as always.

I hope your Valentine’s Day was fabulous and filled with love, no matter who you spent it with!!!

Don’t forget to show the people closest to your heart that you love and cherish them, even when it’s not Valentine’s Day.

xoxo,
Jess

xoxo,
Jess

Sam Nang Chan’s 25th Birthday!!!


August the 9th
was Singapore’s National Day, but what you guys don’t know is… it was also Sam’s 25th birthday!!!

I had him utterly convinced that I had NOTHING at all planned. He didn’t take that very well and kicked up a petty fuss haha… Well I don’t blame him. This was true up until the night before his actual birthday – I panicked and came up with a pretty good last minute plan!

It’s the first time we’re celebrating his birthday together even though we’ve been together for 2 years now, it just so happens that every time it was the 9th of August, he would be in Melbourne, while I was an 8 hours flight away, across globe in Singapore. So I wanted to plan something really really fun like a short getaway, but we’d already been to Bintan recently, so I opted for something personal and cozy.

(and preferably relatively inexpensive lol we’re saving up for our aussie trip in september)

Thanks to Sophie’s bf, Alaric, I managed to get him out of the house for a couple of hours and while he plays DotA in a lan shop, I’m coming up with birthday plans!


Surprise number 1:

25 reasons why I love him,
written in color pencil on small hearts that I’d cut out of drawing paper, hidden in various inconspicuous corners of my room for him to find! Like a Scavenger Hunt.

Image is purposely in bad quality and small-sized so you can’t see all of what I’d written lol. Some of them are personal hehehehe.

He started out with a large blank piece of canvas but he’s meant to find all 25 hearts hidden in my room and stick them onto the big white card with glue! I sort of #FAILED because it was like 3am at night and I’d actually FORGOTTEN where I placed some of the heart cards. LOL.

They were hidden so well that we spent at least 40 minutes trying to find all of them -___-” #notetoself: The next time you plan a surprise, don’t screw yourself over, lol.

25 reasons completed, yay!!! This is stuck onto our wall now :)

Some of the “25 reasons why I love you” include:

You always let me eat your food or decide what’s for dinner (What?? I love sharing food! By sharing I actually mean stealing other people’s food.)

You can’t sing but you go to karaoke with me because I like it

You’re never embarrassed to carry my handbag for me in public

You give awesome massages

You let me rest my leg on you when we sleep (I HAVE to do this. It’s hard for me to fall asleep otherwise lol I’d just put my whole leg over his lower body lmao)


Surprise number 2:

I told him I was going to cook dinner for him… but at the last minute I told him I couldn’t cook because the supermarket was closed and there was no groceries so we had to go out instead!

In actual fact, instead of going to a random restaurant, I brought him to Clarke Quay for a surprise dinner. Well not just ANY dinner, we had a special section of the restaurant decorated and booked out for him!!!

A table reserved for the both of us @ SQUE (click for more info)


sQue Rotisserie & Alehouse

6 Eu Tong Sen Street / #01-70 The Central (from the taxi stand, walk to the left past subway and keep walking)

Tel: +65 222 1887

The food’s soooo good. It’s a Rotisserie and Beer place, exactly what Sam loves!

He’s all like… “AWWW, all this for ME?! *hand action*”

LOL

Yep, he’s 25 but he still gets helium balloons for his birthday. If I could, I’d get him helium balloons for his birthday every year :)

Thank you Janice dear for making all of this possible!!! (the one taking his order. she’s the manager at SQUE, if you visit their restaurant say hi to her, she’s really friendly!)

I was stuck with Sam at home (swimming, playing online games, doing anything to pretend I didn’t have any plans so the surprise would be more surprising lol) and couldn’t go out to buy the decorations and jazz up the place myself. She had it ALL arranged for us when we arrived!! Without her, I dunno what I would’ve done for his b’day because we were so busy with cake orders I couldn’t take time away to arrange something completely by myself.

They have gorgeous alfresco seating where you have spectacular views of the buzzing nightlife along Singapore river and the other restaurants / pubs around, but we chose the indoor seating coz we preferred the air con lol. We cannot survive in anything more than 24 degrees.

Been hearing quite a bit about SQUE from Janice so I was really excited to try their food. Famished, we wasted no time in ordering a heap of food!

The food did not disappoint. In fact, it well exceeded expectations! It’s been awhile since we had good, authentic Western food and this was fantastic. It was the SQUE platter, came with crab meat cakes, baked potato stuffed with chicken, onion fried in batter, and chicken wings. (which was ok, everything else was yum)

They also provided 4 different types of dipping sauces which I LOVED.

That’s Sam’s sian face because he’s effing hungry but I’m stopping him from digging in cuz I need to take pictures. LOL. Rib eye stick with herb butter & skinny fries!!! YUMMMMERRZZ. Omg I’m so hungry now I cannot wait to finish this blog post and go out for dinner haha.

This was my fav part of the meal. Very tender and juicy!!! It’s not charred and doesn’t taste like your typical steak outside, this received mixed reviews from the other people who were present that day (which you’ll find out more of later on) but I personally liked it. A lot.

Beef cheek and pasta… this wasn’t exceptional, but it was yummy nonetheless. Very tender and juicy once again. I love pasta so this goes down well with me! But we probably appreciated it the least because it was the last dish to be served, and since their portions are pretty big, we were stuffed silly by our 2nd main course.

If you wanna head down there for a meal by my recommendation, be informed that their prices are not exactly cheap (but reasonable considering the quality and quantity), their main courses start from $30 plus per person but the servings are generous and they have amazing meat so I reckon it’s money well spent. Any money spent on food is well spent. :P


Cheeeeeers!!!

I’m not one for alcohol but it was a celebratory occasion and we had THE BEST peach beer ever!!! I dunno what it’s called but it’s so good. If you head down to SQUE they will let you know what it is coz it’s really popular. :)

The expression says it all. “DIS BEER IZ GUD.” Lul

Just when he thought that good food and a romantic table set up was highlight of his evening…

Some of his friends showed up at the restaurant to wish him Happy Birthday and joined us for dinner!!! Hehe. By no miracle of course -wink wink-

They were awesome for making it down on such short notice!!!

The rest of the night was… catching up, more beer drinking, more eating, rowdy laughter, nerdy discussions of virtual games and rubbing our full stomachs in happiness! (actually it was more of like… Ughhh I’m so full. *bloated face* )

Albert and Pearlyn! The rest were very camera shy.

For dessert, I ran out to get the cake I made for him which was sitting in SQUE’s fridge…

They helped me light the candles, I walked back into the restaurant holding an oreo rainbow cake with lighted candles and everyone started chorusing…


Happy Birthday to you….


Happy Birthday to you!!!

Happy Birthday *insert name here*

LOL this was the funny part. A lot of his friends present were from his World of Warcraft guild so some called him by his alias, SpiritEater. Some just said, “Sam.” As for Janice, I think she called him by his full name – Sam Nang Chan?!?!

Hahaha and as for me…. I just kept quiet because honestly I didn’t know what to say. Should I sing “Happy Birthday dear boyfriend?” or “Happy Birthday dear Sam?”

“Make a wish before you blow out the candles!!!”

Made me happy inside that people were excited about the cake! SQUE’s staff were like “You made this yourself? Nooo way!” and when people saw the rainbow interior their reactions were even better!

They even took the leftovers home!

It’s a simple butterscotch rainbow layered cake with oreo frosting and oreo cookies lining the bottom. The black smudges on the left side of the cake was from cutting into the black oreo frosting.

The face of the cake just has the words “To: Sam. Happy 25th Birthday!” I wanted to make him an epic dinosaur cake (if you remember I made a fail one for him last year) but I’m hopelessly busy these days so that wasn’t an option. Anyway we make so many cakes all the time I doubt he can be arsed with cakes anymore lol.

We’ve made probably like 100 rainbow cakes by now for other peoples birthdays, yet Sam and I have never had ONE to ourselves! (besides the first time we ever made it. our recipe has improved since then)

Thought it’d be nice if he was on the receiving end for once :)

Made our way home around Midnight.

It’s been like 2 weeks since his birthday but the helium balloon is still floating! Amazing.

Happy (belated, hurhur) Birthday Sam!!!

Lots of love,
from the best girlfriend in the world. (You Know It. LOL)

xoxo,
Jess

xoxo,
Jess

Flames to dust

I used to feel your fire

But now it’s cold inside

Flames to dust

Lovers to friends

Why do all good things come to an end?

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We haven’t gone our separate ways, well, yet.. but why do I get the feeling we’re on our way there? People say that couples spend half their time together breaking up.

I don’t quite know how to explain it properly.

But you know something’s wrong when you lock yourself in your room, listening to sad songs and stifling tears, trying to seek solace in some form of writing while he chooses to ignore your emotions and prevailing problems.

A thin wall separates us but I feel like we are so far away.

When did we stop trying?

I guess to me, it was the day you chose to look away while I was crying instead of catching my tears. Or the other time (many times, actually) you walked out of the room instead of staying to talk things through.

I can’t say this is new to me, but it hurts all the same. It’s scaring me actually, will this be a cycle for all my relationships? I remember this happening exactly the same way it happened with the previous one.

At first, everything was about you. Anything you wanted in the world, he would run to the ends of the earth, to hell and back just for you. Then one day, mild disagreements happen. Soon after, comes rational arguments. Not long before heated yelling…

When heated yelling doesn’t work no more, in time to come the arguments will just end abruptly with cold stares and hot tears. Well tears streaming down from my side at least. He never cries till I mention I’m leaving him. And I’m sickened by the fact that it’s the only thing I can ever say to trigger a reasonable amount of reaction or response from him. I’m one of those girls terribly guilty of threatening to break up with their boyfriend but never get around to doing it. I know I shouldn’t, because I get less convincing each time I say it again… but sometimes I do mean it, I’m just not strong enough to let go. I hate myself for being so weak-willed.

If you actually listened, for once, when I talk to you, maybe I don’t have to resort to empty threats.

Why do boys never love you enough until you’re walking away from them?

You blame me for always picking fights with you. Well it’s better than being oblivious to the whole situation like you are. I’d rather trash out all my problems and at least attempt to solve them, than to just keep pretending everything is fine and dandy when I KNOW it’s not. YOU know it’s not, but you choose to do nothing about it. You don’t care enough anymore.

I was just watching a Gossip Girl episode before, and something a main character said really hit me hard.

“No 2 people should spend 24 / 7 together, no matter how much they love each other.”

I feel like a suffocating, trapped, married woman at 18….. technically 19 in September.

I see his face every morning, every night, I work with him (the most motherfucking frustrating thing I’ve ever done in my life besides math, he is so difficult) and I cook dinner too. I hardly do the things a normal teenager does. I miss having time to myself. I think we’ve both been working so hard that we’ve completely ignored our romance relationship.

I miss missing him.

I miss feeling excited about having a boyfriend. At the moment he just feels like a companion I’m used to having around in my life. By the way he treats me and the things he says, it seems he thinks less of me than a “companion”. It’s almost as if he can’t stomach me, and I find this most puzzling.

I’ve never asked any of this from you. Well I may have hinted my desires but not once in this relationship have I demanded for your money, attention, time or commitment. Every move on your part was 100% voluntary. I didn’t force you to quit your job, leave your friends and family in Melbourne to come live with me in Singapore.

If you’re not going to give it your all, why are you even sticking around? No, wait, why did you even come here in the first place?! It’s painful trying to avoid someone living under the same roof as you. And no, don’t say you’re trying because we both know you’re not.

Give him a break, people say, because not every guy is willing to make that sacrifice. But pray tell, what is the point of closeness and physical touch if we can’t even stand the sight of each other now?! All that closeness ever did was drive us even further apart.

The first time we talked, I had just got out of an abusive relationship after being trapped in it for close to 3 years, and you were the only friend there for me. You encouraged me to get out of it. You know perfectly how he treated me and you promised me a brighter future.

Why fix something, only to break it all over again?

You were everything I thought he was not, but tonight I look into your eyes and search desperately for the guy I’ve once known… he’s nowhere to be found.

Perhaps this was all a huge mistake. We’re constantly taking on more than what we can handle.

I mean, what were we even thinking? (we weren’t)

Diving head first into a long distance relationship after 2 months, moving in with each other after a year and starting a business venture by the 2nd?

We might as well have set off a suicide bomb the first day we met because it’s only a matter of time before everything we’ve ever built together blows up in our faces and comes crashing down on us. I can see the end before it’s even begun.

Is it unfair for me to say I still love you.. but somehow, I’m just not that in love with you anymore?

xoxo,
Jess

xoxo,
Jess
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