I love being weird with you.

As Augustus Waters had recently taught me, the world is not a wish granting factory.

5 years on… I realize that no couple was made perfect for each other, and no relationship is without its threatening problems, no matter how great your attraction and affection for each other may be. People just try their darnest to love, and to be loved. Hopefully, that is enough.

“We’re all a little weird. And life is a little weird. And when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall into mutually satisfying weirdness—and call it love.”

Thank you Samuel from Pixioo Photography for capturing us in our essence. It was a last minute, quickly put together sort of thing that happened so quickly… but I think the spontaneity of the situation turned out well, because he managed to capture us being totally silly, which is what we are whenever we’re together. We had so much fun running around Marina Barrage completely drenched in perspiration underneath our heavy and thick unicorn / dinosaur onesies. Despite the strange looks we got throughout the evening, I couldn’t stop grinning the entire time.
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xoxo,
Jess

xoxo,
Jess

Our 5th Valentine’s Day together

This year, the boyfriend and I spent 90% of our Valentine’s Day slaving away making macarons & cakes for other people until we forgot to even eat and have our regular meals.. so we ended up not really having any plans at all, except for a pretty rushed dinner together. We don’t make a big deal out of V’day anymore, considering since it’s our 5th one together by now – we’re getting more practical over the years. Flowers and fancy dinners are just too expensive and unnecessary. (I can’t believe I’m saying this) Still, I wanted to have something to remember this Valentine’s Day by… so I arranged for a couple photoshoot (without him knowing anything) and surprised him a few days before the 14th of February!

In all our time being together, Sam and I have taken thousands of photos together. I’m extremely trigger happy and I make him pose for photos for keepsake & blogging purposes all the time. But we’ve never actually taken proper photos with a professional photographer together – something fancy, something planned, something we can frame and put on the wall. Who says you have to be engaged or married to take a couple’s photoshoot?!

I made him dress up, sneakily pretending we were going on a date, when really we were going to Chijmes to snap away for an hour (that was really all we could spare out of our crazy hectic February schedule) and I’m so happy we did this because I wholeheartedly adore the photos. I can’t wait to get them printed!!!! 
These are my top picks from the whole shoot, but the first one’s my absolute favorite. I could stare at it all day and smile to myself. The corners of my lips can’t help but turn upwards every single time I see this.
Photography by the wonderful Ace Chia. 

Thank you so much for capturing these moments for us, Ace!!! :) You were a joy to work with. This is Ace’s first couple photoshoot and we’re honored to be her first lovey dovey subjects. She normally does fashion photography, but we decided to switch things up a little because V’day was just around the corner. I am so thrilled to have the opportunity to collaborate with this talented young lady on more than one project, and we had a lot of fun even though it was the first time we’d met! Sam is still kinda stiff when it comes to posing in front of the camera (understandably), but we have more shoots in the planning so hopefully he loosens up in time to come. 

Happy 5th Valentine’s Day together, Sam.
We’ve been through so much together, it’s mind boggling. We’ve went from gaming friends on opposite sides of the globe to having a house together, from riches to poorness to building a business, confusion to bliss to misery to stability & comfort, and even though we scream and fight all the time….

You’re still my Valentine. To have and to hold, always.
xoxo,
Jess
xoxo,
Jess

You cannot unsee this

These days, things for Sam and I have been looking pretty solemn, serious, scary, steady.. whatever you wanna call it.

He’s been newly hired for a full time job, and we’re looking for a place to rent as we prepare to move out of my family home in End October / Early November this year. I’m going to be saying goodbye to my home of 7 years, and I don’t know how to feel about it. This condo in Simei is the only real home I’ve ever truly known. So many memories here, with friends and family alike…
Now, with things taking on such a serious tone, naturally I wonder where my romance and relationship is headed towards. Am I ready for my next big chapter in life alongside Sam? Previously he just moved into a house I was already living in. We didn’t have to pay rent, much of the bills, or live in a place of our own. Thousands of questions race through my mind every day as the date and inevitable draw closer. Goodbye teenage years and childhood forever, hello adulthood and responsibilities. Not many people move out before their 21st Birthday, especially in Singapore where most stay at home with their parents until they get married…. not exactly an easy or ideal situation to be in.
A lot of people also turn up the pressure and stress factor by several notches when they ask us, “When are you guys getting married?”……. 
At first I laugh and think they’re kidding but I look at the expression on their faces and realize they are not. ‘Scuse me!!!!!! For the record I am ONLY turning 20 years old on the 20th of September 2012, you don’t ask someone under 20 when they are getting married! How age-inappropriate is that question??? There are some things you just don’t ask people. Like asking a fat person if they’re pregnant or a black person if they’re from Africa. Just don’t. 
Anyway, I’m not sure I want babies any time soon. Definitely not before I turn 28 at least. Older people talk about how it’s best to have a baby before you turn 25 but I’d like to stay young for as long as possible. My tummy is bulgy enough without a baby inside of it thankewverymuch. I love playing with cute, well behaved babies, as long as they’re not mine.. Like my neighbor’s 1 year old.
Can you imagine if Sam and I had babies? Holy shit.
Sometimes we’d think dreamily about the future, fool around and utter things like, “Our daughter would have your long silky gorgeous hair and glowy skin, and of course my profound intelligence (which I have to argue there is a lack thereof)”. I gave the concept a little more thought and wondered what attributes of myself I’d love for my kids to have. Sam and I make a pretty killer couple. To be honest, I could probably get by just fine without him…

I’m great on my own. So is a pair of classic and plain red soled Louboutin stilettos.

But then you go and add some cool spikey studs all over it to spice up the whole thing and it’s something new and infinitely more brilliant altogether.
You are the silver spikes to my Louboutins, Sam. 
(Except I don’t have a pair… I wear Havaianas) But I love you anyway. I am however, extremely apologetic to say that the visual aspects of our marriage & future family isn’t looking so good…. Remember how we used to say “if she had my hair, your face, my wits, your skin” kind of sweet nothings? Yeah, that isn’t really going to work out.
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And this is why.

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No, this isn’t a break up announcement on my blog, or anything of the sort..
But I just don’t know if I could love my daughter, if she looked like that. Know what I’m saying?!
Let’s agree to put baby making off the list for now (or ever).
xoxo,
Jess
xoxo,
Jess
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