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If there’s one lesson I treasure learning…

Is to learn and grow from the experiences I’ve had. I learnt not to force things that cannot be helped anymore.

And to just let things go, even when you know you can’t bear to. I don’t believe that time heals all pain, but I believe that with time, you’ll get used to the absence of that thing, even though it still hurts.

I’m slowly letting go. And I know it won’t be easy, but…

Being with you guys, it feels like I’m the bad one, the odd girl out. Which really sucks, because I can accept your differences, yet you can’t seem to accept mine.

But I’m not going to blame anybody here because things happen and people change, which is why things are how they are today. It ain’t nobodys fault… but you can put the blame on me if you’d like.

When I think about how and why I’ve changed, I can’t really come to a conclusion.

Maybe it’s the way we hardly hang out anymore.

Or maybe it’s because we never share secrets and sorrows and happiness like we used to, there is no mutual understanding, it’s just casual chat that’s keeping this friendship alive.

I’m just as disappointed as you are.

Perhaps you won’t understand why I’m being like this, and perhaps I won’t understand the way you feel at all.

I don’t quite feel the same anymore.

Anyway… the past 3 years have been tons and tons of fun :)

In your lifetime, many people walk in and out of your life… But only a few leave footprints in your heart (“v”)

Thanks babes.

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Thank you so much darling,

For hearing me cry my heart out and pour all my sorrows to you even when it’s past midnight,

For showing so much concern and empathy while trying to give me advice,

Even when you’re so extremely tired, you made the effort to come over to my place straight away.

I know you’ll be there for me, and I’m glad that I have you in my life. You have always been my favourite person, and you always will be!

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My SugarHoney SuperSexy AbsolutelyLovely LoverBoy!!!!

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Jess is feeling really really sad. =(

It’s ironic how the rain has been pouring heavily for hours and hours. Suits my mood and feelings very well, reminds me of how I cried last night.

Don’t know why I cried that much either.. didn’t realize how much they meant until then.

Don’t feel like talking much, just some photos to share.

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I don’t know why, but alot of photographers like me to “Act cute” for them. Singaporean men!

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I DON’T USUALLY DO THIS. *shudders*

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Me like this picture. Check out the angel wings

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Yours Truly,

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xoxo,
Jess

my fart blows james away

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note to self: do clear up your super messy room before camwhoring in it to prevent unsightly distracting objects in the background

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Who said only big eyes are nice? I like my small eyes!

Fwahahahahaa…

Congratulations, Jessica!

After many many many months of deliberation, hesitation and laziness, you have finally managed to get your fat lard ass off that computer chair and miraculously hit the gym. Something you haven’t done in like, what, 1 year?

Now the question is, CAN YOU KEEP GOING AT IT?


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..My legs feel like JELLY!

#1) because they’re flabby (fats)

#2) cuz they’re not used to exercising for so long

Mannnnnnnnnnnnnn.

While I was on the way to the gym with my mother, I told her,

“Eh mummy, being human is very troublesome hor. Need to do same thing everyday – work, eat, sleep, bathe, study, and worst still also need to EXERCISE REGULARLY!!!!

As if we don’t have better things to worry about than fretting over whether our booty looks fat in that dress.”

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And she’s like,

…..”Of course lah, if not why do you think the moment we humans are born, we cry and cry?

If a baby does not cry, it means the baby is dead.

But if the baby is alive and is not crying, the doctor will smack the baby till it cries! Life is cruel like that.”

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LOL. I kinda agree. It’s so rewardng, so pleasurable, yet so tiring to live.

I’m tired of people, and how superficial they are. Sigh.

Ok I am not going to be emo. Something adorable + funny to share with you!

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The other night, I was with James @ Town, it was past midnight and being exhausted, I really wasn’t in the mood to ride on Devil James’ racing bike,

so I decided to get James to wait with me @ Heeren while I asked my mother to drive all the way down to send me home in her car. When I could have just sat James bike home since he’s coming over to my place to stay anyway.

(I know, I’m so loved and extremely spoilt + pampered, right?! HAH!)

Anddddd…

You know how people in love always say, “Oh baby, you blow me away“?

Well, sure is true for our case!

While we were waiting for my mother’s car to appear,……………..

..I farted.

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And look what happed to poor James!!! (besides the horrible stench)

AHHHHHHHHHH!! Nooooooo, JessicaaaAaaAAaa”

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AND FINALLY……..

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TADAH!!!!!!!!!!

He’s strong, he’s cute, he’s funny……And he’s my very own superman!!!!

HAHAHAHAHA. Ain’t easy at all to do that alright!! Get your boyfriends to try :)

James told me to post this up on my blog and label it as “This is what happens to James when Jessica farts”, so I did.

Hehehe.

The silly things he does just brightens my day like no one else ever could.

I feel blessed in love, even though I’m a whiny bitch who complains 24/7 about him being annoying and shit, I still love him very very much and it’s so cute to see him trying to make me happy.

1 year and 9 months!
Going strong baby, we’re in love.

I feel like such a kid in this relationship. I want undivided attention, I throw petty fits and tempers, I like him to give me surprises and little gifts whenever I’m upset, etc, etc.

At the initial stage of our relationship, James was like a new toy to me. Not something that I’d play with and then throw away, but since I am such a kid,

He was something that could keep me excited, happy, amused all at once. I never get bored of my favourite toy. I was very intrigued about it, I wanted to know everything about it.

But then as time passed, my affection grew and James turned from my toy to my favourite blankie.

That warm blanket that keeps you warm and safe – the only thing you wanna snuggle up to at night.

The love that he showers upon me covers me with warmth and security, without it I feel cold and lost.

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I don’t ever wanna lose this feeling.

My life just won’t be the same without my favourite blanket.

xoxo,
Jess

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AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~

Jessica shows everybody 101 ways how not to give a good lap dance. So I ended up shaking my butt in front of him and thats about it. HAHAHA.

How do I supposedly seduce or grind against a guy whose girlfriend is 1 metre away from him? I’m attached also lor!!! All of the people who were present are evilllllll sinners, LOL.

Good Golly.. The things that beloved S.P.I make me do!!!! They can drive me absolutely crazy and I feel damn alive when I’m with them. I had awesome fun, we brought down the house that night

I can’t wait for the next outing together, which will be soon – we’ll be going to watch the premiere of Prince Caspian, courtesy of Boss Ming! (“v”)

I love Nuffnang + S.P.I, and I have to do a write up soon!

Ok it’s midnight and I have to wake up for stupid school tomorrow. Pffshh. 7 more hours of wasting time.

P.S – No thanks to Jairus for suggesting the “lap dance”, and special thanks to Huiwen for spontaneously lending me her boyfriend to torture for awhile, and of course my victim, Glenn! HAHAHA.

xoxo,
Jess
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