Do you remember?
I remember that look you always have on your face right before we burst out into laughter together
I remember us lying next to each other as we watched the fireworks display above together during last year’s countdown
I remember the first time I sneaked you into my house at 5am when my parents were sleeping
I remember hiding you in my closet when my mum suddenly woke up and came into my room
I remember feeling my heart skip a beat everytime you told me you loved me or kissed me
I remember the feeling of being loved as you slowly ran your fingers through my hair and pulled me closer
I remember how secure it felt when your strong hand held my own
I remember you putting your arm around me protectively in crowded areas
I remember how your warm breath felt against my cheeks as I lay upon your chest listening to your steady heartbeat as I watch you sleep
I remember giving you a peck on your forehead and cheek each night before we fell asleep
I remember that you told me our kids in the future should have my nose and your eyes, your lips and my height..
I remember how you used to hug me tightly for 2 minutes when you first saw me after we didn’t see each other for days
I remember the time you crawled in through the window to get into my house because my brother wouldn’t let you in and you almost fell 6 storeys down and you told me you wouldn’t have done it for any other girl
I remember us always wrestling each other, and I was always the one who got slightly injured halfway so you profusely apologized to me and saying that I was silly to think I could win you in a wrestle anyway
I remember how you made everything seem okay even if things weren’t alright
I remember the first time I saw you cry and my heart broke
I remember the first time you asked me, “You like me?” and I replied “You like ME?” and you just replied “So you like me…?” ….
I remember me happily tickling you until you begged for mercy
I remember the ring in your voice everytime you called out my name
I remember the time we two were the only ones trapped inside Suntec City Mall at 3am because we got locked in so we had to crawl out of a hole in the wall
I remember “Always” and “I’ll be there for you” were the two songs we always used to sing to each other
I remember you saying that I was the first girl whom you begged another chance for
I remember how we used to sit by the pool in my condo, just enjoying each other’s company and talking about everything under the sun
I remember the time I insisted on going ice skating at jurong but it was closed so you brought me to snow city instead
I remember the day we went to Wild Wild Wet and we were having such a good time and you told me you wish that time would stop there
I remember how you always chose couple seats whenever we caught a movie, just so you could cuddle me throughout the show
I remember the time we went to Genting with my family and how you took such good care of me
I remember so many things,
I remember everything..
Those were the best moments of my life.
You were the only one in my eye, and you still are babe, you still are..
So why’d you have to go?
I have no idea how you feel. Do you love me? If you don’t, when did you stop loving me? Or have you ever loved me at all..?
Do you miss me? Do you ever think about me? Do you feel happy or sad when you think about me?
Will you be crying when you see this?
What I really mean to you – that I’ll never know,
just as you’d never know how much you mean to me.
You’re wrong dear, you’re so wrong. I’m not moving on with my life, I’m not that strong.
I need you, more than ever – right now, right here with me..
Don’t you see? You’re not “exposing” me to the world. How could you ever be so cold?
I just miss you so much,
and I think about you every single night and day.
What did I do wrong babe, where did we go wrong?
I tried hard to be that girl you wanted me to be dear, please know that I really did..
but it seemed like no matter what I did or how hard I tried, I just couldn’t keep your heart with me for long.
Feels like just yesterday we were together babe, just yesterday it seemed like we were gonna be together forever..
I look at our pictures when I’m lying each night on my bed because your smile helps to ease the pain, I play the videos we took because listening to your voice is so comforting and reassuring, it’s almost as if you are lying right next to me.
I’m sorry to know that I never meant much to you, I wish I meant more though..
Maybe then you’d understand how I feel, maybe then your heart would break like mine.
I guess I’ll never be anything more than just a little girl and another girlfriend to you..
but I wish you could’ve seen the real me though – the girl who didn’t want anything else in the world except to be with you.
Didn’t you say you would never let me go again, so how could you just walk away?
I wish you’d turn around and take a look,
take a look at me crying now..
And take me along with you babe,
cuz you’ve left me alone,
so far behind.
Won’t be going anywhere until you take my hand and back in my arms again.